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I feel so bad every day and I don't know how to make it stop. Should I talk to someone? I just want to break down and cry but where does that get me? No where. But I hate this feeling that I have... I can't shake it hard as I try... I mean, it's occurred every day at least once and I just cannot escape it. Pictures make me cry. I just want it to stop. How am I supposed to continue on in my life with this? I can't move on until I'm over it! So what do I do?!? There's no one that I can talk to who would help me. Not Corey, not Marena... I don't know who to turn to and it's killing me. I just want to feel normal... To not dwell on things like I am now. If I could go back I swear I would... If I could forget it ever happened then I would do anything to forget. But I can't do that! So what are my options? I have none. Coming to terms with this is impossible by myself. I don't know what to do. But I feel so bad.