Friday, November 20, 2009

We Were Never Meant for Do or Die

Corey and I have decided to break up. I'm not sure what I'm feeling right. I'm very overwhelmed; the divorce, this relationship ending, school... All of it is hard to deal with at one time.

I don't feel like writing.

Should I rename this blog?

"Already Gone" - Kelly Clarkson

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

I say things I don't mean as you mean things you don't say.

How do you base a two-year relationship on a single interview? How can you condemn a love like this to the outcome of a half hour exchange of words? If you aren't happy then fix the problem yourself; it's not my fucking fault. If there's a way I can help you then God damn it why don't you tell me?

These hot tears are staining my face as your words dig in; relentless, overwhelming. I can move on and find someone who will treat me better than this but I don't want to. I want you. But my words are twisted; the emotion straining my vocal chords creates a disconnect between tone and mood.


I say things I don't mean as you mean things you don't say.

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Lo siento. Y sé no hay mucho que puedo decir.

Voy a permanecer despierto toda la noche porque necesito escribir este reporte. Es para mi clase de biología. No estoy recibiendo buenos grados en escuela. Estoy triste.